Oh, ok.

OOTL.

Whats the issue with Protonmail ?

This.

Same here

Something like counting sheep - but in reverse.

1. Count down from 100 to 0
2. Imagine each number ( like you are viewing in a calculator display or in any font you like )
3. External thoughts may come and go , consistently come back to the last number you have seen.

I usually wander in external thoughts for .5 or 1 sec and come back to the last number. Then, sleep somewhere between 50-30

4. For morning time / loud surroundings, use a White noise music. Low volume on a Noise cancellation earphone.

Reason for my depression : Life sucks and I knew it, from my childhood.

I feel better: When I am too busy to think about it. For now, work and family occupies my time mostly. I smile ( = cry ) when I see same depression pattern for my kid.

Imo, you should actively change your situation ( see a doc, have a hobby etc… more importantly, find positive in even small things )

Can you share model details. Also, possible to use while driving/swimming.

Think twice before lending money.

tldr, track record

People are different. Even if 10000% perfect matches, there will be issues in between. Just give sometime.

Multiple solutions are there, like counselling. Understanding each other plays a big role. If you are parents, you gotta hell of responsibilities and less time for arguments.