Brother, I’d think about how you can not mess up the same way in the future, not about how your appearance is gonna be or how you might not be able to beat it. It seems like you’re just wanting everyone to ignore what you did because it effects you negatively.
No, I’d say you aren’t making excuses. You’re just worrying about the wrong things. You needed help, I assume you’re getting help now. Let them help. If this is what’s being recommended, I’d listen